Seems Approriate to Me.

FUTURE


Erosion of the will
prog. Mars square Neptune
Mid-May 2015
until mid-July 2018

(Please note: Chi dumped me on May 28, 2015.)

You may be wandering about in a fog at the moment, and
your judgement is probably not at its best. For this reason it
might be wise to avoid making important decisions, particularly regarding arrangements with others which involve contracts or verbal agreements. Something young, childlike and naive is being stirred in you, which wants life to be a perfect, beautiful place in which nothing bad can happen. Your idealism is likely to be very strong at the moment, whether about individuals or spiritual or political aspirations; and you may exhibit a tendency to be gullible and easily exploited. 

If you have any inclinations toward taking the easy route, you could find yourself doing the exploiting and involving yourself in shady or illicit situations with shady or illicit people, before
you have even quite realised the implications and possible
consequences of what you are doing. For this reason it is extremely important that you have a clear sense of what is happening inside you; for only then can you trust yourself to
make sensible and positive choices.

There has always been a deep idealism in you which you may not have acknowledged or expressed in your outer life. In the past it may have worked covertly to make you vague and indecisive about any action or goal which involved your defining your own separate interests and will. Now this idealism and yearning for perfection may be rising to the surface, making you long to abdicate responsibility for your life and rest in the secure care of someone or something bigger and stronger than you. This potential passivity, and the fantasies that are likely to accompany it, are not inherently negative. They could be immensely creative and could help you to express a gentle, compassionate and deeply imaginative side of your own nature. But the more unconscious you are of your longings, the more they are likely to permeate your decision-making right now, causing you to secretly choose people and situations which promise you something for nothing. 

There are times when life does offer free bounty; but this is not one of them, however much you might wish it. In your personal life too, you may be hoping that someone will come to redeem you and banish all loneliness and conflict. But even if someone did turn up with these credentials, full of spiritual or sexual promise, you might have to pay a high price later.

You may feel inclined to escape at the moment, because you
are being called upon to take charge of your own life and
probably don't really want to do so. Try to avoid the comfort
of drugs and alcohol, even if these seem to temporarily ease
any feelings of frustration and unhappiness. You may feel
deeply discontented, but the illusory bliss of such substances
will not help you. 

Your discontent may be linked to impossibly
high ideals which at other times you would recognise for
what they are. You may want something more than any
human being can offer; and you may want life to be like
Eden, without the snake. You will get neither at the moment.
But you may get a glimpse of life's hidden unity, which could
awaken a deep religious or spiritual commitment. You may
also glimpse universal images which deserve to be expressed through artistic media. 

Perhaps beneath your discontent you need to find your own hidden mysticism and artistic feeling. If you can, you may not feel so vulnerable and powerless.